Hi people..... wow I am getting straight to the point....... Im gob smacked at how ill I was!!!!! I have been reading my blog and comments and cant believe how different I am now, I have been through the most amazing journey ever in my life, but I have learned so much from it!..........about my self and also about values, morals, love, appreciation!.......since becoming 99% better (still got a few issues to overcome) I cant tell you how I just LOVE being alive every day!! .....I thank God for my family and my Good friends , I have so many good friends that have helped me on my path of healing. I know how poorly I was and I know some of you out there, fellow readers are still suffering and you just don't see the light at the end of your dark foul tunnel..... I can tell you peeps there is HOPE!!!...... But I did have to kick my own ass, work towards a positive attitude and try to stay focused and every glitch, every palpitation episode felt like a set back but I shook my self and starting again! ................ you need to tell your mind what to do rather than your mind telling you what to do ! ....train your brain into thinking positive thoughts and in the end your body will respond and not react to fear! ...FEAR has been a BIG thing in my life to overcome and apart from my doctor phobia which is still being worked on.... (70% there now) I can honestly say I am not a bag of quivering arseoles anymore!..... I have just recently been on holiday on the norfolk broads with some girly friends in the middle of nowhere..... I had a great time. If you had of said to me 2 yrs ago ..."rach,,, you will be on a boat in the middle of the country side " I would have laughed ass of and curled back up on the sofa watching telly in my safe spot!...................... the only downside to getting better is for my family cos Im never in! ...LOL...love it..... but my Daughter is reaiping the benefits as she is now coming shopping with me on the bus!...yeah ME on a bus shopping!.................... when I say Im 99% better the 1% is going shopping to town on my own! ....I aint done that yet, I will go to my mothers on the bus on my own but not to town BUT I will!!!!! Prob will attempt it at cristmas time.
Well Guys im signing off for now.......... But I shall be back to see you all .... x x x
me n my mate in photo on our hols!
