Monday, 4 February 2008

Been in Snail mode all day.......

Couldn't get a rush on if I tried.....
Didn't get dressed till 11am which is not like me... Neil came with a great big headache and had to go back to work so the walk is now on hold...had another Panic Attack in the night.... getting used to them now but I do go through fazes of these and they do disslove! So aint done much, can't be bothered..Im not perticularly miserable but just can't be arsed! So tomorrow I am off to my sisters.. what a palava this will be as Hubby takes me down the road on me bike to catch the bus and sees me off then i will be on the bus for about 7 mins till I get to the crossroads in the next village where my Dad will pick me up and take me to my sisters .. this is all because the buses have stopped running like they used to for the past 40 yrs or so....cut backs ..last yr I got a petition with nearly 1000 signatures and presented it to the council but no joy...like the rest of people in power nowadays...knob heads!!!! sorry but it's true!
So will report 2 mo...ova and out!

10 comments:

Coffeecup said...

I'm wondering if these night panics aren't a kind of release for you? You do seem to keep yourself busy all day and well occupied. Perhaps its like a delayed reaction, when it all goes quiet you can finally let go? I have terrible insomnia now because of night panics, no one understands why I stay up all night but the truth is I must have avoided bed at some point associating it with trauma. Good girl for keeping to your routine. I'm certain that they will eventually subside too x

Rachel's Diary said...

hi coffee cup..thanks for posting.. so u have the night panics too then? horrid isnt it..cos ur asleep and then wham! and yes i do think it is true what you say about the release....hope u feel ok and again im sorry about whats happened in ur personal life hun...its a great shamexx

Gary said...

Your pictures just get better Rach!
Night time Panics are not very nice and pretty scary at times, all you can do is just accept them which is what your doing, and stay positive, and remember you not alone with this!

take care Rach xxxx

Rachel's Diary said...

do you get the night panics gary i have never asked you ...do you wake up like me wiv heart going all funny.... if you do i give u all the understanding in the world.
me pic is how i felt today LOL ace int it xxxx

Gary said...

I have had terrible night time panics! they are so frightening! something just wakes you up, i normally get ringing in the left ear, nausea, and sometimes rapid heart beat, most nights i wake up usually after about 2 hrs sleep, and i just put laptop on and try and distract myself and of course the mints which make me feel better, i have also got a paper bag to breathe in if it gets really bad! hope you get a better nights sleep tonight! and if you wake up dont worry, take some deep breaths.

take care Gary xxxx

Rachel's Diary said...

thanks Gary... what I find strange is it is ALWAYS!!!! an hr into sleep!! Always with out fail...so it must be when u fall into a certain sleep faze. here we go light off!!!!!!!!!

Gary said...

yeah i have noticed that! i think a lot of it is your mental state leading up to going to bed, if youre stressed or anxious theres a good chance it will kick off, because when you sleep your mind is still on the go, and it's still sorting stuff out for you! the mental health worker i see recommends relaxation techniques just before bedtime, i never do it though! lol

fungalena said...

Ayup Rache - lol - dont know which I like best - you or the hammies.
Pauls a bit like a hamster int he. I dont think he would be offended by that remark...on the contrary, take it as a compliment. IN FACT....did u see LADY and the TRAMP and the Beaver with that LOG PULLER....nice set of white shiny nashers....thats our Paul....lol I s,s,s,s,s, said a LOG PULLER.... lol......LOVE UR SNAIL - woz just looking for me FREE BUSINESS LOGO for EBID then you popt up wi snail. Maybe the antlers ? no, attenas, no, um wot those tendrils called stickin outa ed? well maybe wi u being a celeb and ROYAL wi sleepin arrangements, those long snail sensors could be your CROWN.....hmmm .... yeh....Love the bit bout bids. TAPIOCA & SEMOLINA....just reminds you dunnit - lol .... missing their mouths wi massive spoon - lol - ahhh its not like me to be like that. Nasty - soz ma - soz pa..... best to not talk bout palps n panics but stupid things instead...2 take ur mind off it...lada bud x x x

fungalena said...

PS - just looking at ur older post bout the mut wi shoes on - Can u remember when PO was a kid and she woz in bed - in summer, sometime in late 70's - and a REDSETTER RAN thru r back door (very pit housey then) and RIGHT up r stairs, jumped RIGHT ON TOP of PO - jumped off and went home - WIERD....... can u remember?????? x x x

Rachel's Diary said...

Ummmmmmmmmm NO!!!!! LOL your a looney you are! c u 2 mo xxxx by the way in the late 70s i would be about 6 sorry to make u feel old !!!!