These bloody panic attacks can sure make you seem a selfish cow...... today I was sat watching tv feeling a little anxious when Paul jumped up and said Oh Rach an ambulance has pulled up next door...well the guy next door is very poorly and on dyalisis but also...I have a real phobia of anything like Doctor's or Ambulances etc etc...so I just went into total panic... I couldnt get my breathing into gear at all then the heart started one eptopic beat after the other.. I could actually feel it in my pulse a missed beat but then a beat nr my stomach...just so typical ectopic....I laid on the floor pretending the ambulance wasn't there...then my freind came in and said "are you ok Rach" I felt a right selfish cow laid there in a state when someone next door was so far worse off than me at that moment... My hubby actually said "GET A GRIP RACH" which really upset me as he thought I was being selfish...but he should know I dont have that type of nature.... I cant help how my body reacted...I wish I could...the more I tried the worse it got..stupid irrational fear that they were gonna come in for me because I was gonna die!!!! After about 15 mins of this I actually felt the adrenaline work it's way out and leave my body like the dust settling after the storm my heart just went straight back to normal..... Any way as it happened.. it wasn't the guy next door it was his little son .. he had jumped on the trampiline and landed funny on his leg and snapped his fibia and tibia... bless him.... Please all me freinds kids are snapping limbs at the moment!!!!! SO I am UPSET,MAD and generally disapointed with myself but who do I blame for this ! GOD? or ME? or is it just MY SHORT STRAW!!!